Losing Him

Buried secrets…pulled out of dank soil and shoved into the light Unjustified accusations, exhausting and expensive to fight Tainted and tattered relationships flutter in and endless wind Impossible to undo or explain, especially to a young mind, closed within Wistful memories of easy smiles and open affection Innocence gone; hatred coaxed by lies and deception Love too strong and proud to let go, perceived as little more than a show Lost for words as his disrespect slowly smolders and grows Lingering awkward anger, followed by confusion and sighs Each hateful word and hostile look, thrown like daggers from eyes I don’t recognize Torn between a mother’s hope and helpless frustration He is resolute; seeing only black and white…allowing no gray in this situation I have given up explaining, reasoning, and rationale that falls on deaf ears My heart breaking with each failed attempt; desperately fighting back tears Gone forever is the boy I knew only months ago Oblivious to my intent and resolute to his own; my heart tells me to say no, …But I will let him go