Losing Her Mind

By Laura Dee Battle July 16, 2013 (revised July 11, 2015) There’s no clarity when she’s feeling this way Blinded by the crippling fear in every yesterday Crying as endless missteps repeat in her mind Remembering the missing sun behind her closed window blinds Pacing back and forth; her insanity runs free She secured the rusted lock but her mind had the key The door is shaking now as the ringing grows loud Tear-spattered walls lined with floods from her clouds Her TV set is on but static is all it ever shows Suddenly she sees what everyone already knows Long ago she lost the beauty in her brittle life She reaches in her dresser drawer to find salvation in a knife Remembering the days when angels used to sing She numbly basks in hopelessness under the stucco ceiling Her eyes are filled with broken dreams; she doesn’t wipe ‘em clean It’s too late to save her now, with everything she’s seen The flood fills up the room while she dies without a sound Her bed becomes the refuge from all the pain she’s found She stands on the sheets and screams out her final plea "I'LL NEVER LEAVE AGAIN DEE JUST STAY HERE WITH ME!" She opens up her flooded eyes to every dream she never knew The blinds are still closed with the sunshine peaking through So she opens her crippled heart to the troubled world unseen The clouds maybe are heavy with the floods that they will bring The moment finally comes to take up arms and fight Readily she meets the shadows in the broken night So she ventures out the room with nothing but love on her arms And sounds her demons battle cry with a smile to disarm