Losing Her Mind

By Laura Dee Battle
July 16, 2013
(revised July 11, 2015)

There’s no clarity when she’s feeling this way
Blinded by the crippling fear in every yesterday
Crying as endless missteps repeat in her mind
Remembering the missing sun behind her closed window blinds

Pacing back and forth; her insanity runs free
She secured the rusted lock but her mind had the key
The door is shaking now as the ringing grows loud
Tear-spattered walls lined with floods from her clouds

Her TV set is on but static is all it ever shows
Suddenly she sees what everyone already knows
Long ago she lost the beauty in her brittle life
She reaches in her dresser drawer to find salvation in a knife

Remembering the days when angels used to sing
She numbly basks in hopelessness under the stucco ceiling
Her eyes are filled with broken dreams; she doesn’t wipe ‘em clean
It’s too late to save her now, with everything she’s seen

The flood fills up the room while she dies without a sound
Her bed becomes the refuge from all the pain she’s found
She stands on the sheets and screams out her final plea
"I'LL NEVER LEAVE AGAIN DEE JUST STAY HERE WITH ME!"

She opens up her flooded eyes to every dream she never knew
The blinds are still closed with the sunshine peaking through 
So she opens her crippled heart to the troubled world unseen
The clouds maybe are heavy with the floods that they will bring

The moment finally comes to take up arms and fight
Readily she meets the shadows in the broken night
So she ventures out the room with nothing but love on her arms
And sounds her demons battle cry with a smile to disarm
Copyright © | Year Posted 2013

Poem

Post Comments

Poetrysoup is an environment of encouragement and growth so only provide specific positive comments that indicate what you appreciate about the poem. Negative comments will result your account being banned.

Please Login to post a comment

A   Avatar
May 28, 2014 at 11:18 AM
Hey Kevin, I like that you understand my poems. ha, many times I know many haven't had a clue, on what I am talking about. "Snorting up and cutting up the food chain in vain" was a fun clever metaphor. Which was my favorite line. Thanks a bunch... Linda
That Archaic Poet Avatar
August 27, 2013 at 7:03 AM
Sounds like some crack-smoking window-peepers I have known lol As a person who has struggled with addiction for myriad years, I identified with your piece. I especially loved the line "He secured the lock but his mind had the key"- brilliant verse. Great poem; glad to see another fellow rhymer. Kudos; enjoyed it immensely :)
Dee Avatar
August 28, 2013 at 5:44 AM
Thanks! yeah this was losely about a panic attack, well more like a panic state that lasted like 2 months and how i was unraveling from the stress. It's about how these emotions make you feel cut off and isolated from the world. there are also themes of self harm and worthlessness. But like all my poems, I try to end with a glimmer of hope, because some days that all we have :)
Sanders Avatar
July 28, 2013 at 4:25 PM
Congratz on being featured I know why to excellent poetry
A   Avatar
July 27, 2013 at 9:44 PM
Hi Kevin,, Congratulations, on having your poem Featured on the Poetry Soup's home page. Take care & Goodnight... -xox- *LINDA
Dee Avatar
July 28, 2013 at 10:30 AM
Thank you! I was very excited to see that
Young Avatar
July 18, 2013 at 7:29 AM
Wwooo......awesome.....i dont have words to describe it ....i would simply say i loved it :)
A  Avatar
July 17, 2013 at 3:49 PM
Kevin, your first poem on the soup is excellent for the readers, I love it!! Stopping by with a nice and sweet Welcome to Poetry Soup. Wishing you the best when it comes to your poems. I hope you get to meet all the nice poets around here. Starting with me. SKAT :-) Please drop a hello and tell me a little about yourself if you like. I would like to be your newest poetry soup fan and "FRIEND"....... God Bless........... Hugs* SKAT"
A   Avatar
July 17, 2013 at 12:25 PM
wow Kevin, that's some heavy wait.. love it -Dropping in with a nice warm WELCOME to poetry soup. I’m here to invite you on over to my contest. You will find the contest page on the top left hand side* -If you ever need or seek feedback on a certain poem, click on my name any time you like. I’m looking forward in following and reading your poetry. Hope to hear from you soon. You will enjoy the community, we are one big happy family. (Drama & Love. LOL) ~ Take Care!! From: your new poet friend @-> LINDA <-@"
Andresen Avatar
July 17, 2013 at 9:55 AM
- Hi, Kevin - A well written poem. - I like it a lot. - Welcome to P-Soup. - Thanks for your first poem, hope there will be many more in the future. - Have fun with poetry. - Good luck! - Greetings from Norway / / Anne-Lise :)
Get a Premium Membership
Turn off ads, get more exposure for your poetry, and get more features with a Premium Membership.
Book: Diverse Voices: The Poetry of Human Rights and the Pursuit of Peace