Looking At My Reflection

(major venting)


mirror mirror who do I see?!?
"you see your true self what do you mean?!?"


looking at my reflection I finally saw
just the kind of person I was after all
I saw the cruel smirk and the deep cold eyes
I saw my fingers crossed hiding behind

mirror mirror can this be so?!?
"you see for yourself just how dark is your soul"

looking at my reflection I finally realized
that this whole time I was hiding behind a disguise
I was hiding the evil that I truly was
fooling those around me even my own heart

mirror mirror can I accept what I see???
"you silly child look deeper than me"

I was confused by who I saw 
just couldn't believe
but looking back on life
I realized that the person in front of me is me.......

I am a foolish person who chose fear over love
I am a weak minded person who let others rule over me
I feel guilty because I lost someone I was going to leave
I am stupid too believe I can get back the love I threw away
I am crazy to ever want a happy-ending

the list goes on and on but one thing remains

my reflection shows who I made myself become
it shows my cowardice my hesitation
it shows everything I do not want to be
my reflection is my constant reminder
too fight even if I know I will lose 
too be brave even if the world is swarmed in darkness


a long time ago I was given a shield 
my shield tried so hard to protect me 
tried so hard to be there for me
but I tossed it away for an empty gun
I do not regret it because now I can appreciate 
what I had even though it is now truly lost 

everyone has a reflection that they see but don't see
everyone sees what they wish to see even though its false
a reflection is just that a reflection...
Copyright © | Year Posted 2014


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