Logics Lord Willing

I'm so tired Frustrated at being exhausted almost expired Out here looking for the plug that'll have rewire And give me the battery in back To flip stacks And put me on the map Before my insides catch fire This anger and disappointment the igniter Holding on to dreams of having my kids dress flyer Wife on visual full rotation from outsiders But that's not how my life is So I digress Sit a lil bit plotting out what's next The schematic at times seem to complex Take a break Come back refreshed and take on All the things they say is wrong And holding on Til my fingertips are chafed and palms are torn raw Google map an avenue to explore But my heart implores That I was always ment for more And everything I got is a blessing but I'm so used to loss Like a 16 with no chorus Speaking what I want so much into existence Now my voice horse Feet feel course Back made thick from all that I've been holding on My mind is intertwined With the design That all of this is temporary But my patience is declined Seeing places I be dreaming Half asleep plotting out a scheme and Frustrated to the point that I be beaming But I can't stop won't stop Even tho I'm bleeding Bloody scalp burnt up shoes And chest wheezing All of this just for one reason Even when I fade away Ppl will see my kids and say All the things in which that they see today And overstand why daddy behaved this way.......peace