Living With Bipolar
How can I describe bipolar to you?
Well I’ll let you know when I can describe it to myself too
All I can say is that I often do things that I know I’ll regret
I often say things that I wish others will forget
I switch between reckless apathy and overwhelming misery
My brain isn’t right is all the doctors can tell me
That makes sense, because I often feel a tad bit crazy
Trying to manage this disorder is the hardest test I’ve ever faced
More so after discovering that for as much progress I make, it can all be erased
I’m tired of trying to explain why I am the way I am
I’m tired of the inevitable fall every time I try to take a stand
I’m tired of being massively depressed and having obsessive thoughts about ending my life
I’m tired of having such excessive energy, agitation, anxiety and delusions of grandeur for stretches of time, night after night
I’m just tired, it feels like I’ve lived an entire lifetime in my twenty six years
People tell me why don’t you just make yourself feel better, just make it go away
Believe me when I say this: If I could make it stop, I would’ve done so yesterday
Copyright © Christopher Stones | Year Posted 2011
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