David William Breidenthal Poet Free verse

Living This Lie

People seem to hide their problems for a moment
I need some time on my own to kneel down and repent
Can’t wait till it’s all over, when this jealousy fades away
For now, let the sorrowful rain shower upon me this sun-shining day

I’m very lonely in my own skin and I have nowhere to go
So sorry for feeling the way I feel…I just want you to know
That I will be alright, as long as I have someone by my side
Catch my tears before they collide upon the cold floor…in the shadows, I hide

Nothing seems right anymore – I guess I am worthless to you
I need some motivation and some confidence along the way
Can’t stand dealing with me right now, but I’ll live with what I’m going through 
No one sees me or mirrors my pain…God, just take it all away

Is there hope to find or am I the one, growing blind?
I feel like a loser when I find myself being left behind
I know, you don’t have to tell me – I was always meant to be a failure from the start
Born to be a winner in spirit, but I’ve lost it all…my faith towards you was my favorite type of art

I need to smile and laugh some, but somebody got to give me some love
I just don’t know what to do, living this lie that is below or above
Acknowledge the words I utter and graze in your own maze
People tell me, “Don’t worry…you’re just going through a tough phase”

How come God’s timing isn’t the same as ours? Sorry to question You so
The thoughts in my head are bewildering…wishing for Your gracious glow
I light up like a computer screen would, but there’s nothing to stare at
Just a worn-out mat, getting stepped on several times by heartless individuals…growing independent like a black cat

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Rev. Gerald Dillenbeck January 25, 2016 at 7:33 PM Of yours I have read, this one seems most resonant and transparent; true. Now, do you have Dying this Truth? in you already? That one takes most of us a lifetime to write. Thanks so much for visiting my way; enjoyed my visit in Earnings' Landscape.

Tim Smith April 16, 2015 at 2:19 PM Well my friend He has a plan and you wouldn't be going through all this pain if you couldn't handle it...be strong.....there will be brighter days ahead...fabulous pen...I like this write from you...a fav

Wally Flint April 16, 2015 at 12:10 PM J. W. M. - I hope this poem is just creativity and not really the way you are feeling. If it is the way you are feeling then I would say that you are not a loser, but a valuable person and a good writer! Keep on writing my friend!

Anne-Lise Andresen April 16, 2015 at 11:22 AM - So heartbreaking sad ............. like a flower needs water, people need love! - Deeply touching and very well written J.W.M. - hugs // Anne-Lise :)