Living Debate

Today I thought of all my stress
Causing me such an unrest
So much to think that I had thought
Would it be better to live or not?

Get this straight: I'm no cutter
No pill taker; def. not a jumper
I'm not killing myself- get that straight
Just explaining today's living debate

I hate the fact I suck at school
No discipline in me for easy rules
'Do the work, earn good grades'
I failed to do so; a whole year fades

My freshman year; man I $*#%ed up
Too much partying, boys and stuff
Taken for granted just how hard
Barely passing for my report card

I ruled today I just must live
My life, to the fullest, and to give
Back to all who help me to stay
Family, friends, defining me to claim nay.

Nay, I will never end early my years
Selfish would it be; no other word more clear
For people who care and have to deal
If I were gone; their lifelong empty feel

Not being conceded; I'm not all that
I just couldn't ever leave someone like that
Abandonment, giving up, not me
I'll fight this challenge to get off AP*

Staying in school's now my number one
Everything comes second; last listed is 'Fun'
Focus on completing the work I need
Will help me cope with getting degree'd

From this message, please take away
The thought to never check out early your stay
Here on this earth, even when you're down
Think of your loved ones who'll always want you around.


*AP: Academic Probation- possibility of removal of university for poor grades
Copyright © | Year Posted 2010

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Palli Avatar
October 26, 2010 at 9:51 AM
Loved it! Good change in attitude.
Brown Avatar
October 13, 2010 at 11:25 AM
I enjoyed reading your excellent poetry this beautiful morning Amy. Thank you for sharing your writing with us. May your day be full of inspiration. Love, Carol
Young Avatar
October 13, 2010 at 4:34 AM
thanks Dr.Ram! =) I'm actually studying in the 24hour study zone of my school library now for a midterm, haha. So hopefully I don't blow it =)
Mehta Avatar
October 13, 2010 at 4:31 AM
Nie expressions well penned on Academic Probation, Amy
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