Live With Yourself

Just when I think I'm over it Just when I think I won I start to reminise about all the harm you done The bloody lip Bruised arms When you would drag me by my hair All my clothes you would rip How it wasn't fair The times you threatened to rape me How scared I was inside The times you threatened to kill me and made me want to die The times you threw me into a window and I would truly scream The times you told me to shut up or you would keep inflecting pain on me The times I didn't shut up and the abuse would get worse All the times my life just seemed like a fatal curse All the times I wanted to be happy but sadness saw me through Sadness was what I got because I didn't get rid of you Thinking you would change Wash away my rain But instead stayed the same A boy filled with rage A man never to be Not if life depended on it A boy I'll never again see My heart I will not again pond it Though I'm filled with pain deep inside my heart Though Part of me is still stuck in the dark Though I can't say how many more tears I will cry Though I don't know when this pain will die Though I have to live with everything that happened to me You suffer the most Because You have to live with yourself inevitably Never again will I make the same mistakes In the end I was the one to gain Gained a lesson A lesson truly learned A fight so strong Now the tables have truly turned Copyright © 2007 kelly Streit