Light In the Eyes

Sometimes i ponder why, the way i am Why the universe shows me myself And shows me my reflection While im just a man full of insecurities and sin Born into a story that feels fiction yet still bland I loose so much that it feels impossible to win Im a failure im a freak Im a monster And It burns in my head as i hold in all this heat I shouldnt even exist As i fail everyone from head to feet... I try to be happy.. But i dont know whats wrong with me I can make all these words rhythm as i sink in my chest Relapsing in my own misery I wish i could change the world...and be the best But my expectations always kill me The farther i climb the harder i fall But im trying to be more For someone Who like me wants things to change Even if mine is more selfish.. Cheesy and raw I just hope she remains If not i guess il understand As i am not the best of the best Or the strongest internally as my soul breaks down most days And brings me heart and mind to a crawl I dont even know what this poem is about Except for the fact i never feel worthy Even if its my last name.. Like an angel stripped of wings Yet i still make a way to hurry and bring myself off my knees Before time closes the window And il forever regret and think of what might have been to be