Life Note To Self

(Life note to self — answer God’s call and walk hope’s hall with my head up with a heart of fearlessness, not appall) Living this life has made me feel so much strife as of lately...but I’m making it alive by numbing the pain I’ve been feeling for a while now..I must sleep to get rid of the sweat on my brow I felt like dying tonight, but deep down, I want to live freely...fake it till I make it is what I keep telling myself and I’m driven insane somehow...anyhow, I’m going to take a bow Feel the thunderstorm of my heart beating Enjoy a life full of joy and keep defeating Negativity and its demons that dare to break you and I...God has filled me up with His might Oh, I have an ode for myself — it’s a life note, not a death note...who knew I’d end up, losing a bit of faithfulness inside...but I need motivation to be by my side and soon enough, I will survive tribulation’s extraterrestrial tide Tension and apprehension fills my mind and I’m so blind, but I was blessed with great sight Elevate my empathy towards You and look forward to brighter days, so that I won’t cry these tears and simply cower away...something in me has died, but I’m confident that all cynicism will soon subside Trying to let go of hopelessness and give in to tranquility’s hold - a peace that I need tremendously, so I’m giving it a try...I’ll try to fly...I must be bold...I must be bold and do what I am told, so that God’s Word doesn’t remain cold in my mind’s eye Overly thinking over different dilemmas in my life and I don’t ever want to die...even if my mind says otherwise, I will become a happy man — that, I can’t deny Shame embraced me, never leaving my presence...my beloved heart beats in remembrance Of You and Your elegant effulgence...I remember the good times spent with the Father of Truth...Empath of loneliness and bearer of griefs of various kinds— that’s who I once was Sometimes, life doesn’t make sense, but I’m looking forward to jubilance and His excellent radiance... Free-spiritedly shines anew through the open doors of my mind’s eye...God loves us and reads our life notes of endurance and awesomeness, despite our downfalls and flaws... (Life note to self — stand tall through it all and when I fall, I will get back up and get on the ball...)