Life, Love, Loss

It has been 30 years since you have been gone, Mom. I was 18 and you were almost 37, too young. For you Dad it has been almost 10 years. 58 was also too young. Life has had its ups and downs. Mom you have 2 grandchildren by me, 1 by brother, and 2 by sister. But you probably already know all this. Because sister you have been gone 6 long years. 40 years old also young. Dad, I had 1 more grandchild, a boy. He is a lot like you, sometimes I wonder if that is a good thing or a bad thing. Now you have 3 Great-Grandchildren, all little boys. Sometimes life has been so hard. Grandmother is gone and so is Aunt M. You all have no idea of how much your missed and loved . I think sometimes things may have been different if you were all here, but then again maybe not. Sometimes I think about how I wish the grandchildren had you all here. Things have really been hard for them. I cry thinking about what they are all missing. How spoiled rotten and so very loved they all would be by grandparents. How lucky I was to grow up with a full family and have mom, dad, aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents and even great-grandparents, for as long as I did. I think I cry knowing the comfort and love that they will be missing from grandparents. Life is so short and could be gone in an instant, as I have learned. They say time heals, maybe to an extent. I know time has gone by and I still miss you all.