Life Has Become a Mess

Mindful of thoughts, not knowing what to do.. just trying to stay calm and strong Deep inside, i really know as all my feelings were raising among.... can't handle the life anymore and have no reason to end my life.... like a single rock near the sea shore I'm left alone to walk on the knife.. why does i allow myself to be taken for granted..?? no love or respect is left for self and life is as usual haunted.... I just want my life to be pure also prayers were not less.. only for the purpose of love I'm being lure and ended up making my "LIFE A MESS"