Life Doesn'T Get Any Better Than This

If you’ve ever sat in a dimly lit restaurant with garlands wrapped around its egg-shell glossy moldings listening to the faint sound of wine glasses clinking, amongst the pitter-patter of an unfamiliar crowd in a late December night, you know the feeling It’s like a cross between Deja-vu and an epiphany - it tells you that ‘yes, you have a good life. This is a good thing. The boy holding your hand loves you, and the people at this table are happy,’ but it also tells you ‘something is missing. This is right in all the wrong ways. They are happy, but you are not.’ And at that moment, life is laid out in front of you; stitched into the silk napkin above your dinner plate. It’s a mirage of everything you want, everything you need, and everything you are grateful for but it dawns on you that, these three things do not coincide. There isn’t anything else to do on a night like this, besides fade in and out of the conversation ringing in your right ear. But you still listen to the glasses that continue to clink cheerfully and the chit-chat around you because maybe you’ll get up and leave this life behind. But then again, maybe not. A part of you still wants to savor it. A part of you still wants to honor it. So you do