Letters To Me

Outside shell hides true feelings. Even though the pain piles up like ten foot ceilings. The more layers I try not to shed the more keep peeling. I tried to lock you out but the key you keep stealing. In you keep reeling...the consequence of it is you keep me from healing. Maybe this all has a deeper hidden meaning. But for now ill shell up hiding my true feelings. Ill continue to not let you see what I see. Pretending I'm okay and a distance ill keep. Because the more that I roam I only continue to seek. For that promise you made but I knew you wouldn't keep. It's left me empty..my heart is bare. Off in the distance is where I stare. I may not show it but I do still care. The pain of losing you is what I feared. Now I dream wishing for some serenity. Hoping that calm waters will soon be ahead of me. Wishing that pain won't get the better of me. Maybe I should write this down and send this as a letter to me.