Less Than Triumphant Return

It's been a while since I've been here Three, maybe four years My old worked provoked a tear Of laughter, so these are the things I used to fear? Can't expect too much from a kid But I don't feel I've changed much as it is Though I'm in a much better place that I was then Or am I? Well I've definitely grown, in age and maturity And I've stopped abiding by perception is reality Consequently I'm more numb than I used to be The kid who wrote those poems would never make it through boot camp But if he did, at least he'd know what to do with himself That's only because he didn't have to worry about anything else As of now I don't either; just going with systematic flow But only less than 1% of the American population gets to go where I go Maybe I'll have a better analysis when I get back, who knows