Leaving Scars

You picked her. Making her the happiest alive. You picked someone else, and i slept alone. The other side of the bed empty. Your scent still on the pillow. Our memories, torturing me and leaving scars. You showed me what it was to love, but look at what you did. You told me you wouldnt leave, but you did. So i did too. You came back. Why did you come back? I forgave you so quickly. With the thought of you wanting me again made me so happy. A whole month you begged me to be yours and then i did. I was yours, but now look at us. You're cutting back into the scars you created before. Leaving me insecure and alone. Sure you say youre busy, but you said that before. Sure, you say im not talking with anyone, But you said that before. Sure, you said you love me, but you said that before. The pain i feel right now is crazy. Everything reminds me of you. Songs, sweet soft melodies, laughs, jokes, sad emotions. You play through my mind everyday and i cant even get a hi from you. When you do, you never say anything else, making me feel like im nothing. Making me feel like i dont deserve anything special. Making me feel like ill never be god enough. You are redoing what you started and it hurts. I hardly get out of bed. Eating cut down to a bag of chips a day. You're hurting me. Ill just push you away i guess... Better now than later... You were and are my everything... can i be yours?