Last Night

Last night I dreamt I haven’t had a dream in Christ knows how long I dreamt a dream that shook my soul I dreamt of the glorious uncontrollable freedom I once knew Of an old friend estranged Living Breathing Two blocks from where I now lay I dreamt of sparks crackling from a flame -of smoke bellowing into some abyss -of fireflies dancing into infinity I dreamt of stupor Of love Of Rock Music I was there, unspoiled, unadulterated, unyielding I was in pursuit of god knows what, I was ALIVE! I was seeing the lie, believing I would transcend it I dreamt of loud party’s in spinning rooms I dreamt of beautiful intoxication I dreamt of a party so large the floor fell out from beneathour feet I dreamt of ear shattering nonsense statements Preached to the world from front lawns for the world to hearin its three am sleep I dreamt of myself I dreamt of a young man enticed by the glow of an entirebottle of tequila Caught up in a moment of pure insanity and hormone One in which heboldly grabbed a girl by her arm and professed his desire to make love to her The boyfriend looked at him in amazement and confusion asthe two had been holding hands I dreamt of seemingly endless journeys to nowhere Forever lost But to my dismay always found again I dreamt of pure, real, untainted love I dreamt of the bewildered eyes upon me as it manifested in uniquedemented ways My back against a wall Adrenalinepumping as I heckle her like a carnie challenged like a child in a school yard dare A knife My chest A drop of blood A captive audience trying to make sense of the madnessunfolding In an explosion of energy I fell from my dream I landed so hard it tore my dog in a dumbfounded terror fromher own sleep I sat up I reflected I ached to go back My head so full of thoughts, emotions, and creativity I grabbed a pen I used to feel I used to dream I used to express and create This morning I wrote for the first time in years. -J. DeSantis