Lament To Life

You don't know How deep I go How low I spiral down You cannot see That part of me That somehow needs to drown You cannot hear My cry of fear To face another day You try to care But I'm not there I've somehow gone away Inside my head Already dead Numbness my surround I can't be reached My mind is breached Beneath me is no ground But I can't seem to go And I don't really know What keeps me here in pain And as I come back The tears make a track As they pour like heavy rain To wet my face As I wonder at grace That has saved me one more time What is it holds me here Though still living in fear One forward step is mine What is this I feel Holds like bands of steel When my choice is to leave this pain But something stops me going Though the wish is ever growing To never open my eyes again Too many hard memories Too many weird remedies How am I supposed to cope To get through the day The only way Is to take their chemical dope So I continue to live And of myself I give In the hope that I can change To somehow help you And see you through And halt my own mad derange.