Lament To Life

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This was written for a youg friend who was suicidal and felt like no-one could understand. She was very grateful to see that I did, not only understand, but knew her inside out, as I had personally been there a very long time ago. This is dedicated to her and her recovery.

You don't know
How deep I go
How low I spiral down
You cannot see
That part of me
That somehow needs to drown

You cannot hear 
My cry of fear
To face another day
You try to care
But I'm not there
I've somehow gone away

Inside my head
Already dead
Numbness my surround
I can't be reached
My mind is breached
Beneath me is no ground

But I can't seem to go
And I don't really know
What keeps me here in pain
And as I come back
The tears make a track
As they pour like heavy rain

To wet my face
As I wonder at grace
That has saved me one more time
What is it holds me here
Though still living in fear
One forward step is mine

What is this I feel
Holds like bands of steel
When my choice is to leave this pain
But something stops me going
Though the wish is ever growing
To never open my eyes again

Too many hard memories
Too many weird remedies
How am I supposed to cope
To get through the day
The only way 
Is to take their chemical dope

So I continue to live
And of myself I give
In the hope that I can change
To somehow help you
And see you through
And halt my own mad derange.

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Fire Bird

Date: 9/27/2023 2:13:00 AM

This poem expresses such deep emotions, I am really glad you were able to help your friend! - Phoenix :)

Aly Bahr
Date: 9/27/2023 8:01:00 PM

Thank you Fire Bird.