Lament of My Life

I was talking about Christmas one day The season was just a few months away My dear friend said, 'Christmas is drawing near So now, what have you achieved in the year?' I pondered o'er that question for a while Memories brought, upon my face, a sad smile The little I had achieved with my hands Were but vain castles built on sinking sand I had dreams I worked hard to actualise Alas! Disappointments made me realise My pursuit of happiness was misplaced In goals that trapped me in a futile race I was looking for someone I could share My fears with; one who would always be there To wipe away my tears and hold my hand To lift me up when I could not stand My quest for that someone led to despair Heavy was the burden I had to bear For my past haunted me with sleepless nights I felt like I was losing in the fight Despair and depression wrought hopelessness I wanted to escape from the darkness That bound me with its merciless fetters Death looked good; life did not seem to matter I made a thorough plan to end my life To leave this fallen world of pain and strife My affairs were set in proper order My time for suicide was drawing closer But God intervened and saved me from death The Lord kept me from drawing my last breath He worked through my friends and family His love shone through their actions so clearly The bitter years of hardship have turned sweet I realised that in Christ I am complete In all my shame, He has accepted me A sinner saved by grace, I am now free I have accomplished nothing on my own I have found my worth in God's grace alone His grace is more than sufficient for me To live this life for His praise and glory