Killing Me Inside

I used to really believe, That love hurt the most, But the pain I feel everyday, Love doesn't even come close, Cause now being alone is my deal, Not talking about needing a female, I'm doing just fine without all that, This is what's weighing on my scale, Talking about this kills me inside, The pain as I pick up my phone, Search to find my Dad's number, But all I get is a busy dial tone, Or maybe wanting to meet up, With my brothers at the bar, But since they aren't here either, There's no use in going to my car, I wish I could just snap my fingers, And have them all flying so free, I know that will never happen and, This is still so hard for me, I don't want to be alone anymore, I'm feel stuck in a deep dark whole, I know love can always be replaced but, Losing my family is draining my soul!!