Keeping It Together

Falling apart is human nature from the start We cry when we break down with grief in heart Don’t walk away, but smile away the yearning of yesterday Living, in general, is tough and fills me with despair today Please, please don’t ride the troublesome train of disdain I’m trying to keep it together best I can It’s difficult to contain the past pain that hurts me insane I shattered like nothing mattered, man I’m an invincible individual I’m a dynamic optimist…meandering through the mist… Negativity is not at all cool Once, there were slits of crimson on my wrist… Now, they are gone Because I moved on Please, please put me at eternal ease I need a great deal of healing Bring me, bring me the blessed breeze I don’t find the shame appealing I am trying to find myself…so unstable Understand that I am trying to keep it together best I can…best I can… I get it already – it’s almost impossible Simply have some sympathy on my soul and I’ll be a resilient man Dude, keeping it together, altogether, Is like being in control of the weather So, stop being pushy and talking to me aggressively Is it better if I wear a smile through tough times? Would that be considered eccentric and crazy? About a trillion times, you told me to keep up the poetry rhymes In my endless amount of poetry… Heartfelt, yet complicated poetry is how I describe them… Ain’t that funny? I found it silly.. I treasure each of them like a mysterious, effulgent gem Is it really hidden in plain sight That I cared for you since forever? With all of my minute might, I believed in your success with doubtless fervor I am an overwhelmed, brainless bard…inclined to irrational notions Keeping it together…is absolutely hard, dealing with irksome emotions I keep writing with passion and such intensity…producing isolative insanity… Truth is…most of what I write, if not all of it, is related to my own reality Everyone can relate to my verses of alienated ambition surprisingly I am astonished I have grown to be emotionally unique with creativity No one can possibly perceive the inspirational lines I type on my tablet I might seem like I am exaggerating on dealing with experiences that are unfortunate Figures as much that I dedicate this poem To freaking-out feelings that are on freezing fire I also dedicate this piece of writing to them Who experience an abundant amount of hardships that are hardly admirable or far from someone's desire…wrapped around with the wire of an endurance-impelled empire I’m torn to pieces and scraps Since the several moments when you left my side…traumatized with triggering tension… I face horrid remorse's relapse Won’t divorce delight deep inside, but I'll abort agitation and ditch disgusting depression And, you guessed it, (I muse on reality's demise and its stings) This is the only way that I will keep it all together I need a million miracles and billions of blessings (this, I shall admit) This will be quite a challenging change of weather Why does it feel like I am falling apart and breaking down? Because…that moment you walked away, I was grief-stricken by woeful whim Tomorrow is a train trip away, so I will travel with no frown Keeping it together made me shatter due to bottling it up to the utmost brim… Keeping it together (still a loner label) Is...altogether…unbearable! (so unsure)