Kaos In -part 5- final part

Hate the feelings of ew's and ugh's...let's pause before we put our paws on this unmanageable cause with silent applause (quiet interest or hushed enthusiasm) What's the cause of these negative, gross, worthless flawful laws that opens a juzzilion jaws I wear the mask of smiles I treated a million miles Just to c u go away !!! Oh nuuu! Don't say it's 2day To my dying, unlying and not-even-trying dismay, Your dark and dangerous disarray is a gay, shameless straying-away day that goes frankly cray-cray I must say with my head up and down in many-a-way Greed got in the way..I wanted you to simply stay by my sheltering side I've started to go astray some say...subside not from my crazy ride No way, Jesus (ho-zay) Do as you may Pay the price, OK? You're my living sacrifice I took your advice lightly - entice me again, but this time though, don't hand me delicious delicacies on a clean slate plate that offer further useless advice that scatter out of my insane brain like house mice that are not-so-nice to be a tad concise - I prize my sayings, despise it's misunderstandings along with it...I paid the price with past memories that are like bugs that suck up the dead dandruff aka live lice I reckon it's my turn To burn out the light of deception's might Let the oceans of your humane found in a few in humans flow and churn It's my time to live for the death of yesterday - quiet times are quite alright I only take correction from the Lord of Accord or, originally, His name is God All I do...is nod and hold on to His Word like a iron-sharpens-iron rod I say I'll do what He says in the bible specifically but I don't totally I say let's pray everyday, but I won't stick to the plan unfortunately I wish I was in someone else's skin Wondering where in the world you've been After all, you've been gone all night with someone new You didn't even see me stand tall through it all...still sic with dem luv floo and you hadn't a clue...who knew...you weren't part of the good-in-the-hood crew I'm afraid I'm a downgrade, an old trait in a lonely state I doubt no doubt or pout Lately, I needed an upgrade up-to-date... I can't wait for future fate What goes in goes out I sit there...people stand dumbfoundedly and vacantly stare just a hair - at least we're a perfect pair - dare to be my beloved nightmare I move with the groove too Unique on fleek with a rebelliousish streak (innocent-weak - meaning lack of strength and lack of innocence along with it) and as zealous and bold as a bear...playing truth and dare without a care Impatient sin...it appears that you are struck stupid by nightmares, letting out a tragedy with an acrid aftershock as a whole and as a shard of shattered hope that will make me mope - that, in itself, ain't dope and I'm an inaccurately-drawn slope and a broken telescope I'm infatuated with isolation illumination - where do I begin? Fury-whelmed and faint with frustration...in a stallion station of shimmering, satisfactory sensation with no shake of sheer hesitation You're precarious and hilarious...and oh so serious and helpless...this hardship of hell on Mnt. Everest is perilously pitiful in illusive obscurity! You're living a life, free and careless nonetheless...more or less to impress and express eustress and distress, Sooooo press on those keys on the piano...dear love, te amo... Placed carefully in a neat, gloriousless mess... You're a delicate China plate, a polished success Press on the keyboard of boredom disease The odium of sodium is hardly putting my heart and soul at ease Even my brain has gone insane My lane of thought has zipped through your own Pain rain has given me a loss of a gain Played as a fool by your on-your-own advice of arrogance all alone Snug in the blankets of my dreadful delight I can't afford your priceless presence near my side all day and night Here's an access To exPRESS, not impress Print your paw prints on my heart of tattooed taboo Don't be a sour poo, my baby boo - you're mad as a buzzin' bee, about to sting the knee - boohoo! And shooshoo to you-you too Hate me like you do, haters Love me like you mean it, lovers Chew away the gum of fooldumb Instead, consume God's wisdom Numb and dumb, But I am still titanium Despite all the **** you've put me through I've encountered so many trials...if only you knew half of what I've experienced...it's something new outta the orange that gleams anew The audience of denseless, senseless clever cheer and fearless fear Brought me down here...downfalls are my uprising, my darling dear and my sidetracked deer No worries, have no fear, for God is near and repentance is kneeling at the back door for you and I to not put it in the backburner like we always did before I fear while others mock, taunt and jeer Unleash me from the chains of no-brainers and painters of stained see-you-laters Give me five minutes to gussy up in a manly fashion and to make-up lines that are charismatic for you and I...you're the barking, bold dog (I dig it I admit) and I'm the cat that passionately purrs (I paw it a bit) Chastise me with your fantasy and prize me for my reality's fails and successes along the way..forgive and forget the haters and let anticipation do the talking, walking-on-thin-ice ice-skaters, not worked up on what lies ahead - a Kingdom that's far higher than spacescrapers It's common sense to stay vigilant and be sober-minded individuals You're my maniac on a levitating leash and you are a bouncy beach ball, getting thrown back and forth with no end or so it seems in my wild dreams that are scorching by the seams My drunk dear...I'm a tearjerker that sheds so many bittersweet lament drops because my heart stops at your reckless actions of self-satisfactions and peer-pressured by past and present interactions...what about you get your spirits running on energy-fused, faith fuels (that are cewlz) You're my Genesis to Revelation, the Lord Almighty...but I'm mighty sorry - please forgive me for the wrongs I've committed from time to time...I let out my kaos-enthralled screams that heightens my self-esteem and I'm flowing free like surreal streams that are as shiny as blessing beams I'm the fifth child in my family The youngest brother... I'm a Gemini like my father frankly Grew close to my mother... I miss her...I love her...she still considers me her son I wish she would come back This divorce thing...I'm unsure of, but it's hurting me to hear of it a ton