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Kaleidoscope

You are like a kaleidoscope, ever changing you see, every time that I gaze upon you, there is a new mystery At first, I believed that you were transparent and that I knew all that there was to know, but as I got closer and looked within, the colors started to explode You showed me the red, the passion that lied within your heart, and it was truly astonishing to see and know that I was a part That I was the reason that your heart beat that way, and to know that it was love you were feeling through the color your mood would convey The way your breathing became more rapid when I would look into your eyes, and the way that you couldn’t catch your breath when I took your hand in mine You showed me the blue, the sadness that you had encountered in your past, and all that I wanted to do was hold you until those old feelings were diminished from your mind at last The blue was so cold, and it gave to me a chill, and in that time, you told me things that I was told to never retell, and I never will You showed me the green when I would relax and lie in your arms, and the way that you held me then, I always felt so safe from harm And since at that time my heart was synced up with you, some of my colors resided inside of your kaleidoscope too I showed you the yellow with my cheerfulness that I would convey, but I was only with you this way You brought out the sun in me, and you made me feel like I was free I was so optimistic, and it showed way back then, but now all that I can do is put a smile on my face and just pretend You showed me the purple which to me only showed how artificially fake that you really were, you told me so many lies in that time and now I am so sure You thought that you were on a higher plain than me, but at first you didn’t reveal this secret, not in the beginning I showed you brown, that I was wistful and genuine to a fault, and I guess in the end you realized that by how hard that I fought Fought to keep us together, because I didn’t want you to go, but to hear you tell it there was no other way you had to go I showed you orange and how I was playful and fun, and you would show me reflections of the same here and there, when you weren’t feeling as though you had to run I showed you pink the color that I felt most spoke of me, the color of innocence and romance what I wanted true love to be Pink is what I thought that I had found within you, your colors entwined with mine in that time and my heart thought that it knew My heart believed that I had found the other half of my romantic soul, but my pink innocence got in the way and now I am no longer whole You showed me black, the true color of your heart, the side of you that had an edge that I could never see, at least not at the start As time went on and we said our last goodbye, black was the color that your eyes conveyed as they looked deep into mine The color of uncaring, of no emotions at all, the color that truly fits the epitome of you and all your wrong But I showed you my white, my pureness, my faith in healing and letting go, I showed you my white that maybe someday you could have the peace within your soul The white that restored the faith that I needed to find within my own heart, the white that shines the brightest through your kaleidoscope of stars.

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Date: 2/16/2022 3:58:00 PM
Marvellous. Amanda, your poems, in particular this expression, draws me to cry. I marvel at your heart and lament and recovery turned into words.
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Amanda Kinzer
Date: 2/17/2022 7:10:00 PM
Thank you so much for your kind words. I feel humbled that my writing evokes emotions in you. I only wish that the person this was written for could have seen it the way that you have but as always it was never enough. You made me smile by your kind words. Thank you so much.
Date: 7/3/2020 9:27:00 PM
I have enjoyed the way you attribute feelings to colors. Well penned.
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Amanda Kinzer
Date: 7/3/2020 9:37:00 PM
Thank you Caren!

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