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Just...Me

There inside of me is a deep yearning,
One that has been forever burning.

A yearning to belong and to be,
A desire to be accepted for me.

I am a wife but not for long,
As that dream is now forgone.

I am a sister, a friend, and someones lover,
Believe it or not I also used to be called "Mother".

I wake up everyday in so much pain,
Waiting for it to go away in vain.

I have dreams of being more,
But feel like this life is my penance to settle my score.

I have not always done what is right,
And for that, I now see the light.

Too little too late,
But my pain does not abate.

People always wonder why I have no self worth.
Maybe they should spend a day in my world.

I talk to people but see something in their face,
That just makes me think I am taking up space.

My kids were taken from me,
Yet people act like that is way it is supposed to be.

I can no longer eat very much,
But have not been able to lose much weight as such.

When I talk no one listens,
Nor do they see the tears that glisten.

My life, my very existance
Has come to nothing but a pittance.

I am who I am and nothing more.
Even though most days I am a great bore.

I work a job that I am not supposed to do,
Yet everyone says they have no clue.

Told everyday I am stupid and worth nothing more.
Am told that having 5 kids makes me a whore.

I love with all my heart and might,
I just want one chance at what is right.

I don't think I ask for a lot,
I just am tired of being treated like a robot.

I have needs, wants, and desires.
I just no longer want to be stuck in these mires.

I want no more than to be loved and respected.
Is it so wrong to want to be accepted?

I want the right to be.
I am just...me

Copyright © Kristy De La Keur Scoville | Year Posted 2009

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Julie Loveless Date: 4/15/2009 4:17:00 PM This is wonderfull you are a fantastic writing! Login to Reply

Aleera De La Keur Date: 4/15/2009 1:00:00 AM This is a painful write, it needs to be a bit fine tuned to flow a bit better, but believe it or not most of what you say, does not apply to me or Illy, we love you and your only crime was falling for a man who was a smooth talker, I married his evil twin, from another mother. I love you, I really do. Love Leerie Login to Reply

Carolyn Devonshire Date: 4/12/2009 4:39:00 PM You have the right to be yourself, Kristy. Having five children is a blessing. I hope you find those things that meet your "need, wants, and desires." Beautiful writing! Love, Carolyn Login to Reply