Just One More Time ....Part 2

I pulled the handle, Just playing for fun, But soon became fixated on the excitement it brung Little did I know, It was the beginning of the end My addictive passion was playing to win The flashing lights and arousing sounds Winning or losing I was completely bound Amongst myself and the other strays Just one more time became a common phrase My wallet grew empty, My bank account cleaned Temptation had taken it's toll on me I was Late for work, And some days I called off I had written bad checks, Just to cover up my loss No money for the rent, bills or for food Everything was gone, Gone far too soon I some how found the strength to get up and leave But not before I had lost, Lost everything Now I am left with a half empty tank, No food at home And no money in the bank Driving down the freeway, With many thoughts in mind What kind of person would do this, What kind of person am I Tears are streaming down my face, Why do I keep making the same mistake One day my Mom discovered what I'd been hiding inside When it came time to buy groceries and my pocketbook was dry I cried my heart out and pleaded for help She gave me her love, warmth and support We worked through the motions, I cried so many tears Because every time I turned around, The urges reappeared I was so weak, So she offered her strength She became the payee, Of the bills and the rent I gave over my money, Each paycheck I earned And chucked it all up to a hard lesson learned It's been a few years, Since I've lived in that life I'm thankful to God, For a Mother so wise So loving and gentle, Strong and so true She's part of the reason, I started OVER brand new The other reason I chose for turning over a new leaf I realized nothing was more important, Than my daughter who needed me It took my Mom giving me so much inspiration and support-Loving me and guiding me, showing me what I was doing, and me feeling the aftermath of needing necessities and my daughter wanting me to take her places and buy her things and I was broke because I had gambled it all away- Harsh reality- I couldn't bare to see the disappointment in her eyes once more-she is my whole world, I wanted to do so much for her.I couldn't when I was weak-but little by little I found strength..I realized my worth-We all make mistakes but I have learned from mine. It wasn't easy but besides my daughter and my mom-The most amazing support I have is My Lord Jesus Christ- I am stronger now more than I ever was-Now my daughter is spoiled!