Just me

I I was born early but now im late to everything, I over think things and under do, My favourite colour is red but my worst thing is blood, I love painting but i cant draw a thing, I'm always trying to go forwards but end up backwards, I talk a lot and i say nothing at all. I like people but i dislike many, I give everything i have and everything i have gets taken off me. I share love but cant find love, I always listen and offer a shoulder, but when i need a shoulder i can never find one, and noone hears a word i say. I like to be alone but i get lonely often. I love music it makes me feel good, but i get sad when i listen to it. I love children but feel sad when i think of them, My soul wants to go home but my brain says no, I whisper outside but roar inside, Empathy is my middle name, but so many dont have middle names.