Just Like My Daddy

Just like My Daddy It started a long time ago as a kid, I was still young Rebelling against the law, back talking adults, but I thought it was still fun I always thought about changing but I figured why bother When I did good, it wasn’t noticed, but when I did bad, “ I was just like my father” That’s what my mother would say, when she got angry Because she knew that the lack of love at home wouldn’t be enough to sustain me My mother’s excuse was” my father was working” but I knew she was lying to me I was emotionally dying inside, waking up in cold sweats, and crying in my sleep. With no role model to correct me, all my problems just carried over Because the same issues I had when I was young just got worse as I got older I should have known that this must have stemmed from my beginnings As a result I lack understanding and knowledge on how to treat women Trying to find out my purpose when I roll life’s dice, and there is no luck again Rationalizing with the punishing thought that I might have to grow up again I found out my ex was pregnant, now she is already sending child support bills to me I wasn’t taught how to respond to that, so I run, after all the responsibility was killing me Now I spend my days on the road having fun and drug using To escape the thoughts of what my life really is or what my son or daughter is doing My mother’s words echo through my mind at night, until the truth grabs me I find myself crying, because I quit life and responsibility, Just like My Daddy Stevie D/ Lover Boy Dedicated to breaking the cycle