Just Like Her

I now know the feeling of regret To want to change something so much You would pay the devil with your soul If only you could truly forget The warmth of her beauty, the joy of her touch And if only you could be in control Of time and space and death and life You'd go back and make it all okay Yeah, if only wishes came true Then you could erase all of this emptiness and strife You could wake up and not have to hear them say She died today and its because of you Not because of something you said or anything you had done But rather, your lack of doing something sincere And making her feel understood and cared for Yeah, the thought of how empty and totally alone She felt eats away at you and makes it abundantly clear That you could have changed this forevermore But now you live your life in total regret Darkness gathers around your soul Guilt burdens your mind endlessly You go to sleep to try and forget But your nightmares make you lose all self-control And you start to lose all of your sanity There is nothing left for you here Only heartache and disappointment with despair You contemplate ending it all, just like her What do you have left to fear? Definitely not death because you just don't care So you try to be just like her Only it doesn't work so now you are still here And she is still gone like a rainbow after the rain And you can't understand why You look up to find answers in the stars But all you find is more sadness and pain So you go off into a corner and you cry Cry the tears of sadness, emptiness, guilt and what might have been If only you had been there when she needed you Why weren't you there you curse yourself in the mirror God may well forgive you for this act of sin But you will never forgive yourself for the things you didn't do And that makes your purpos on this earth a whole lot clearer You will never let anyone else become that lonely You will never let someone else you love slip through You will never let a friend a die on you because you didn't act That is the way you will redeem yourself adn that is the only Reason you are still on this earth and why you will do Anything and say whatever it takes to stop someone else and detract Themselves from ending it all, just like her