Just As the World Is Re----Turning

insolate myself from everyone i dont want to breath my soul hurting im cleaving at invisible walls has he hit my bi-polar switch? did it decide to toucher me again on its own twitching my feet my hearts unsteady beat trying not to hyper-ventaliate with my anxiety and no antidote i cant find his lips his kiss stolen away from me . . . but for one night i stole him from the world. . . he barely talks to me now . . .[but still his flashing, heart catching smile] he wont risk their fallout my girls lie - and say he feels it too my soul hurting like explosives my eyes not crying cause its so cold did karma kiss me with its poisen off the subject - my disorders arent his fault but i want him so much and i cant my hearts unsteady beat i need to calm my anxiety i think i need to bleed - but bad habits are adictions i dont want returning just as this world is turning . . .