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Just a Thought

Always around 
slightly small mostly black
think of my kids 
that's what holds me back
cracks in my heart 
such a delicate shell
tears fill my eyes 
my eyes start to swell
try to be a new me 
no drugs no liquor
now my eyes open wide 
more reasons to pull the trigger
thought it was real 
did you mean what you said
starting to see the truth 
make the target my head
holding back so much pain 
but still some leaks out
no one to talk to 
feel better with cold metal in my mouth
no peace in my soul
it will not rest
another thought comes to mind
aim straight for my chest
even then I cry
thinking of taking a last breath
seriously thinking without me
would the children be best
feeling like a criminal
I've committed no theft
here is a person that's broken
I have nothing left
I'll walk away now 
before I do something stupid
stop leaving it around
one day I might use it
no, no.... I can't
gotta remember my babies
this is a silent prayer I'm tormented
God please save me

Copyright © | Year Posted 2010

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Date: 9/21/2010 6:09:00 AM
I would like to welcome you to PoetrySoup Serenity. Wishing you the best in your writing endeavors. You can look to the left side of the main page and find lots of information on PoetrySoup including contests by members of PoetrySoup and contests by the PoetrySoup site also which you may enter.If you have questions please feel free to ask anyone here. We are all willing to help and if we don't know the answer we will find someone who does. Love, Carol
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Date: 9/18/2010 11:32:00 PM
This Poem Right here Deserves a 7 Cause this poem was Real deep Real Deep man You pour all your emotions into this poem
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Date: 9/18/2010 3:12:00 PM
These are only thoughts never a reality. I have three beautiful children but even the best in life can't cancel out the worst. Writing is my release to the bad. Don't worry readers definately nothing to worry about! Thank you for you comments and support.
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Date: 9/18/2010 10:18:00 AM
well written. i would hope that these issues are not actual - if they are then please search for peace and love - i have found it in my belief and life practices with God, the love of my family and the great support i get on PS when i open up my heart - as you have done with this great work. God speed to you, and thank you, chuck
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Date: 9/17/2010 2:53:00 PM
Welcome to Poetry Soup.. enjoyed reading your most creative write tonight.. a good book on the subject is "Power Thoughts" by Joyce Meyer... awesome ... and its free on her website so check it out ... this site offers many contests ... check them out to enter and good luck with luv..
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Date: 9/17/2010 11:45:00 AM
i hope you find your warmth that you forever cherrish.. this poem was written beautifully and just keep wriiting because thats what will pull you through, know that you have that beauty that art inside you soul.
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Date: 9/17/2010 10:28:00 AM
So much sadness and turmoil. Praying for peace and wisdom to surround you.
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Date: 9/17/2010 9:25:00 AM
Too loving!!!!!!! Emotions run beautifully!!!!!!!! Vrushani!!!!!!
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