Jest a Joke

I guess I am just a joke, never to be taken seriously. Gave pieces of myself out too generously. Even though I did it cautiously, The evidence shows it was still done dangerously. Ive fought for the wrong ones furiously. Trying to hold on to that memory, now seems more like a stupid fantasy. Does everyone think I don't have the mental capacity to handle the truth or deserve honesty? I don't hide awful intentions masked by chivalry. I may have flaws, sometimes rather clumsy, there's not much of me Ive become somewhat shaky, But when you're all in, so am I entirely. I think people think I am a joke, sadly I've learned that curiosity can come off as acting suspiciously Being anxious or nervous can turn into a catastrophe. Inner commentary Acting awkwardly Try to approach things delicately Failed miserably. To Be continued...