Jaded

I'm faded, feeling jaded, wondering what's to come of this life the lord created. Seems like something always pulls me down when I start to feel like I made it. Living life blissfully in the sun, but now everything's shaded. Life dealt me these cards, and it felt right when I played it. So I threw down my heart, only for you to spade it. I gave you my love and trust, and you betrayed it. Like my hearts a toy in a box to be played wit. Shared with you all my deepest secrets, and you displayed it. Giving me these feelings of hurt, torment and sadness all braided. Thought when I gave you this hurting heart you were gonna be the one who saved it. But now I'm right back where I started, feeling faded.