I'Ve Tried

I've tried my very best to be your loving wife, be there when you needed me but now, my days are filled with strife. Sometimes I question my existence why am I even on this world? For years now, I've loved you but, it's only hate you unfurl. I know your back hurts it seems like you blame me, I did not do this to you from your hate, I want to be free. You say you don't hate me but how do I know it's not a lie? I can see the real truth when I look into your eyes. At times you confuse me so I'm not saying I'm dumb, one minute it's love, next anger you leave me feeling numb. I've tried my very best to be the wife you want, you say I'm not good enough for you your hurtful words always haunt. Copyright Cynthia Jones Apr.29/2015 I was told, that I might not be the best looking thing, but I'm basically being pitied. I can't do this anymore. I'm tired of being bummed out and writing negative ****. Time to try to move onto something else...if I can.