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Its Ok

You opened the door, on my scared young heart, the moment you walked into 
the room

  And your eyes seemed to penetrate, and you eyes seemed to say, "its ok-ok to 
be attracted to me"

  So i sat very still and looked around the room, waiting to make up my mind

  And i sat in the spot of 3 and 1/2 months, comfy and tormented, confused by 
inner shock

  And at the right moment, on the right day, i was about to confess undying love, i 
tried and i tried but the words wouldn't come

  But your eyes seemed to penetrate and your eyes seemed to say "its ok-ok to 
love me"

  So love i did, with all my heart, and somewhere in you i found the missing and 
the missed part of me

  And i cried when you left me oh it hurt so bad, through tears in my eyes i missed 
the message in yours

  Now i see you, sometimes alone sometimes with friends, and it is then i 
remember being 19

  It is then i remember what innocence and ignorance feels like and i miss it

  And i read your eyes- they feed me a changing message- first i read...

  "i'm sorry i hurt you, i'm sorry i brought you into this lifestyle, its ok to hate me"

  And then i see...

  "i think so you everyday, i need you in my life, i'm so sorry i hurt you, its ok to 
miss me"

  I close my eyes, to shake confusion, when they open you are gone, but where 
you ever really there

  And then i wonder, why do i care, why since the beginning have i looked for 
permission in your eyes, why didn't i look in my own

  In the mirror, out the window, at the sky, or even in my own soul,- my soul has 
the answers

  My problem...only you have the questions

Copyright © Kendra Dexter | Year Posted 2006

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