Its Ok

You opened the door, on my scared young heart, the moment you walked into the room And your eyes seemed to penetrate, and you eyes seemed to say, "its ok-ok to be attracted to me" So i sat very still and looked around the room, waiting to make up my mind And i sat in the spot of 3 and 1/2 months, comfy and tormented, confused by inner shock And at the right moment, on the right day, i was about to confess undying love, i tried and i tried but the words wouldn't come But your eyes seemed to penetrate and your eyes seemed to say "its ok-ok to love me" So love i did, with all my heart, and somewhere in you i found the missing and the missed part of me And i cried when you left me oh it hurt so bad, through tears in my eyes i missed the message in yours Now i see you, sometimes alone sometimes with friends, and it is then i remember being 19 It is then i remember what innocence and ignorance feels like and i miss it And i read your eyes- they feed me a changing message- first i read... "i'm sorry i hurt you, i'm sorry i brought you into this lifestyle, its ok to hate me" And then i see... "i think so you everyday, i need you in my life, i'm so sorry i hurt you, its ok to miss me" I close my eyes, to shake confusion, when they open you are gone, but where you ever really there And then i wonder, why do i care, why since the beginning have i looked for permission in your eyes, why didn't i look in my own In the mirror, out the window, at the sky, or even in my own soul,- my soul has the answers My problem...only you have the questions