Roxanna Johnson Poet Rhyme

It's Not You Its Me

It's not you. 
It's me.
It's my fault.
My trust issues, my own war taking place within my heart and mind.
Relief I cannot find.

Maybe it stimulates from my past.
The cheating.
The deception.
The nights laying in bed contemplating suicide.
Trying to escape, looking to hide. 

It's not you.
It's me.
It's my fault.
My heart says's you'll stay, my mind says's you'll leave
Maybe my own mind is out to destroy me; to completely deceive.

Today hurt.
Deja Vu.
Her drunkenness taking advantage of you.
You did the right thing.
You told me.
Did it bring up my past?
Hell yes. The memory came rushing at me fast. 

I want today to end.
I hurt.
My heart aches and my mind is numb.
Something so small hurt me so much inside
Your honest; never have you lied
Once again I want to hide.

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Richard Palmer September 8, 2012 at 12:43 PM think praying would be better,hiding only sinks us deeper,insecurity is poison Roxanna,get it out of your system,it destroys

Poet Destroyer A June 24, 2012 at 3:40 PM Roxanna, why are you blaming yourself.. this is a deep write... thanks for sharing your poem, always~PD

Vicky Tsiluma June 24, 2012 at 10:19 AM That's the dilemma, isn't it? Not knowing whether to run towards or away from... This is a nice piece Roxanna!

Lori Lucas Mcclure June 24, 2012 at 9:34 AM It was a pleasure to read your work! Lori

Steven Henderson June 23, 2012 at 6:36 PM Nay I say...they enemy wins that way. Stand I say! Peace and blessings.