It's a Wonderful Life

Don't let the title fool you, life is nothing close to wonderful. I am starting to loathe this thing called life I am living. Sometimes I wish I would slip into a coma until death took me. I really don't think many will really miss me. I feel I don't matter to anyone outside of my family. I am tolerated, shown a gesture, when I am stand in someone's presence. I wish I could live the movie for a few minutes. See if I really make a difference in this world, in the lives of my friends, or acquaintances. Maybe I could see rather or not I really mean a damn to anyone. Maybe it's best to consider living this life alone. It's what I do best. I just wish it was more of a wonder life.