It went away just as quickly as it had come

Just when these pages open, where I was chosen, by others open their eyes and suddenly follow. Me. Follow me everywhere I go. I feel there since I hear just laugher, words and smiles. Not what nice has been standing there, where I worked my a** up for it. Even though of what I went through, to have these pages sent. But I am just happy that I was given this situation where they start grabbing my shoulder and ask me nicely. And give away words kindly. Sometimes my habits are on the run, and I try to make things they would like to see. Just so I can still hear them talking, hear them saying such nice words, even though, it's just, calling my name. To, calling out my name. When then you will start to try to speak, I can't unsee your bright freckles. Tell me, since when do you have freckles? I have mixed your green eyes with those of blue, where they not shining enough, or have I hesitated to see through? Why have I thought *you* you were always the blue ones? Even though it meant to my eyes to bring tears while hurted till blindness? You know even though I quickly looked away, In the memory, your face will always be captured fully. Indeed your eyes, even though my pupils quickly blurred you away. There is never a blurred picture. I did a move so I had to accept it, that you will openly message it, saying a word that could've meant more than it did from thousands. But not today. Not till, everything's okay.