It Was All a Test

There I was standing in awe The barrel of a gun is all I saw Thinking I’m about to mutter my last words Renounce your God or die is all I heard I’m not ready to die But God I just cant deny No matter how hard I try So I told him no that’s ridiculous But my friends told him don’t listen to her she’s delirious I was in my right mind I mean I had to be in the midst of this crime I’m thinking about Columbine but it was only me Every time I close my eyes all I see Is the face of the girl who was killed for her belief Then I see her family sitting there with grief I don’t want my family to be sad or mad I see it as a blessing I had in this aspect of my life Because all I ever talk about is the pain and the strife But this gunman seemed different Because for a minute, killing me wasn’t important I had a feeling that this guy knew me I wanted to see his face so I started moving in slowly When I pulled off his mask I had a sudden peace of mind Because now I know it was God the whole time The whole time it was all a test