Is this control?

I'm trying really hard to catch my thoughts It is rather tricky As I have them , non-stop Silence is deafening for me I don't even think I will have peace after my Brain waves are seen On the electro -en- ceph - alo- gram or EEG Its last recording will read and mock this very thought - quite vividly Sometimes, I wish I had an off switch Though let's face it It wouldn't make a difference I'd figure a way to trigger a wave Return life to this overcrowded thinking skin cave Forcing myself to again just think think think away Silly rabbit, always running late I don't think carelessly I think with control; willingly I am in control Or at least that's the thought I had been Trying to believe Previous thinking has made this thought something I aimed to always have and a goal to achieve Now learning I can just be present Without inundating my thought space Future tripping on My past, neglecting my present Inevitably continuing this cycle until when? There is nothing left of me or my thought space is miraculously empty? I'm not in control of what life has planned for me But my thoughts they are mine, except sometimes I am not sure what version they are of me Ultimately, they are mine sometimes just not the current me So I'm learning to teach my brain to recognize past versions and present ones regarding my thoughts and their escape from my thought space and skin cave Its challenging I wore many masks in my past Some seem to have more than the last They seem to always lack one thing It's the presence of silence and just letting things be. This is progress for me Acknowledging, I am the problem but also the key Is a mind-blowing realization I'm happy has finally come to me