Is It Me?

Sometimes I wonder if you really exist. I just don’t want to feel so loathsome towards you. Just like you towards me. It's like my heart is being ripped apart. Is it an illusion? Or is it just me? Tell me so, so I could rest in peace. I just want to know if you could shout the answer to my ear. I don’t want us to be like nothing happened and deride at each other like fools. Will you please hear my heart? Will you please just for one second let me cry out loud? Tell me if you really exist, or is it just an illusion in my mind of what I feel.