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Intrusive Thoughts

Dare I share my intrusive thoughts
Once suicidal in a mood so dark
I actually tried to stop my heart
Using vitamins to sin with life to part

It was a low that got so deep
Manic tide had overcome me
Was hearing voices in trilogies
Mad as I was bipolar buried

I recall walking outside
Collapsed in the sunshine
Barely recall ambulance ride
Feeling lost wanting to die

Intrusive thoughts from deep hell
Kept me lost and so very unwell
I was a boat without a sail
Within my mind in a prison cell

Lost many months in a ward
Though so sick poetry still soared 
God used doctors nurses to save
A crazy little poet from herself that day

Copyright © Karen Jones | Year Posted 2025

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Paula Goldsmith Date: 6/15/2025 11:33:00 AM Congratulations on your win. I loved reading your powerful yet sad write. Great Ending... Sometimes life can be very hard/hurtful. Glad our wonderful poet was saved by God to write. Love your writes, so Write On. Hugs... Have a blessed day with your win........ Login to Reply Karen Jones Date: 6/15/2025 12:01:00 PM You are kind and I appreciate you Paula!

Krishnanand Guptar Date: 6/15/2025 4:25:00 AM Congratulations Karen on your win in this contest with a daring poem written flowingly and shared with a smile. Wishing you a smiling day, friend. Login to Reply Karen Jones Date: 6/15/2025 5:15:00 AM Thanks Krishnanand! Happy Father’s Day if you celebrate!

Edward Ibeh Date: 6/14/2025 6:37:00 PM Wonderfully composed, harrowing write, Karen. Is this true? If so, I'm glad you made it through the dark, trying times. Heartiest congratulations on your win in my contest! Login to Reply Karen Jones Date: 6/14/2025 6:46:00 PM Yes it’s true and I thank God He brought me out of it! I was in bad shape! Thanks for your challenging contest! I’d never thought I’d ever write about it! lol hopefully it wasn’t too hard to read or a bummer!

Kim Rodrigues Date: 6/10/2025 7:08:00 PM So brave to share. We love having you here, sweet poet! Login to Reply Karen Jones Date: 6/10/2025 7:35:00 PM Thank you Kim! I hope I’m not over sharing!

Gershon Wolf Date: 6/10/2025 6:09:00 PM If true, I really feel for you. If untrue... I'll stop there. ~ gw Login to Reply Karen Jones Date: 6/10/2025 6:27:00 PM Sent you a soupmail Karen Jones Date: 6/10/2025 6:23:00 PM It’s not something that I am proud of. It’s true. The first time I tried to end my life was childhood due to sexual abuse. I didn’t keep the pills down however my little body threw them up.