Intoxicated

Can such lonely words be more beautiful?
Screaming pleas - just hear me out
I don't have words enough to express this...
The toxicity is mixed in a sea of doubt
They say all the time "it hurts like hell"
Maybe my personal hell has become my friend
Inescapable fire and shadows follow me
Too much to extend, I can't see the end

 Intoxicated by love, incapacitated by fear
Escalating when you come near
Suffocated by doubt, Surprised in the light
That you still say I'm worth the fight
Intoxicated, elated, but it's all isolated
In the screams that won't disappear

Could someone else just get how I feel?
Screaming pleas - I'm desperate now
Take me out of the dark, don't let me return
Just save me from this somehow
I put myself here, so how is it fair?
I guess I need to get myself out of the fire
But as much as I loathe the consuming flames
The pain doesn't retire, it's getting more dire

 Intoxicated by love, incapacitated by fear
Escalating when you come near
Suffocated by doubt, Surprised in the light
That you still say I'm worth the fight
Intoxicated, elated, but it's all isolated
In the screams that won't disappear

Beauty, pain, love's a flame
And part of it hurts like hell
Depression, obsession, and who's to blame?
I was alone the day that I fell
Intoxicated, elated, and it's all concentrated
In you, but I'd never tell

 Intoxicated by love, incapacitated by fear
Escalating when you come near
Suffocated by doubt, Surprised in the light
That you still say I'm worth the fight
Intoxicated, elated, but it's all isolated
In the screams that won't disappear

Can such lonely words be expressed out loud?
I'm screaming, I'm pleading - just hear me out
Copyright © | Year Posted 2018

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Dillenbeck Avatar
March 9, 2018 at 9:01 AM
Also a compelling journey. Even more so, I imagine, as a performance piece that is about peace but not at all peacefilled. About longing more than belonging, and yet seeing one could not be without the other. Warmly, Gerald Oliver
Breidenthal Avatar
January 16, 2018 at 11:47 PM
"I was alone the day that I fell" That line alone is super powerful. All I have to say is WOW. This is a beautiful poem. When we fall so hard, sometimes we fear we are losing ourselves, and is there any consolation through words? Sometimes it is inexpressible. That's what I got out of it. I like your style. Always, Laura
Onclaud Avatar
January 10, 2018 at 10:31 AM
pensive and emotive are your lines...very well scribed, juli...huggs
A   Avatar
January 9, 2018 at 11:33 PM
This is deep, and has an awesome flow. Juli-M... I'm impressed and glad to read your poetry again. Linda
May Avatar
January 9, 2018 at 4:17 PM
Caught between emotions of fear and love.....Very nice lyrics Juli
One Avatar
January 9, 2018 at 4:05 PM
I hope you are heard, this is an excellent deep write...
Andresen Avatar
January 9, 2018 at 2:54 PM
- An awesome write, with your feelings Juli-Michelle - Happy New Year ! - hugs // Anne-Lise :)
Trifiatis Avatar
January 9, 2018 at 1:55 PM
A roar of the inner self that wishes to be heard by everyone! It certainly possesses the quality of writing required to that end! Superbe, mon amie , Juli-Michelle!
Hamilton Avatar
January 9, 2018 at 1:16 PM
Nice lyric Juli-Michelle, I can hear this as a power ballad in the Evanescence vein. Would be great set to amazing guitars, enjoyed!
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