Intolerable Ignorance

Completely consumed by the sound of my screaming, I keep hoping to wake up from this nightmare I'm dreaming. Crazy thoughts run through my mind, visions of the possessions I never can find. I lie awake at night with tears in my eyes, trying to get over a life full of lies. I find myself wanting to fix things that aren't even broken, and every word I speak has already been spoken. I don't understand how I got lost for so long, I was looking for the other side but I guess it was gone. I tried to eliminate the illusion that you put in my brain, but in the end I'm still the one dealing with the pain. My soul cries out from deep down inside, It's getting tired of denying these thoughts of suicide. I feel like my life doesn't make sense, and it's caused by my own intolerable ignorance.