Internal Wrath

there is a sudden wrath my one supposed rage but this is all i have and it doesn't go away an emotional hollow resounds in my head one voice tells me i wish you were dead well that voice is mine distinctive as it is my internal misery intense pain that it gives i'm huddled in a corner worthless as i am distressingly inadequate my head a battering ram arousing feelings of paranoia a mental deterioration not used to being like this with strange hallucinations i'm out of control but i still ask the question why what damn right do i have to stay here and survive sentence me to death to stem this raging fire i'm now prepared to weaken to calm and to retire but the fury just keeps going when will it subside to ease the sudden outbursts to feel me slowly die like a chemical reaction just ready to explode demanding all the negative when i'm existing in this mode