Intense

Since my mind started taking me on this journey going back to my past I have worried non stop about how my heart would fall and how fast I was right to worry and trying to keep myself all together well now sometimes that's task But I did try to fight everyday What to you I needed to say But there became a time Where those feelings I was painfully keeping inside I knew from you I could no longer hide They needed to be said I just couldn't keep going like I was I couldn't breathe and the moment had come when I couldn't any longer pretend So I told you how I had always been with and still in love with you You grew silent and speechless then didn't quite know what to do I never meant to cause you any kind of sorrow And when I look around you're not here with me today and I know you will not be here tomorrow I didn't want to make any trouble for you or be the reason for any heartache or pain But I selfishly needed to so much stop my personal hell and rain I still believe whole heartedly in everything I told to you Even if now I am the one who don't quite know completely what to do Some tell me to give up and just go ahead and give in They tell me this maybe a game you're not meant to win If that could be done easily what makes people think I wouldn't have already done it Yet here in this room alone I still continue to sit And even though sometimes I won't admit it, my heart's breaking off piece by piece and bit by bit They just don't get that on this for me giving up would just tear me more apart Because you are the one who still after all these years has my heart God must have a plan for me Because dealing with all this I've come to clearly see Just how much of a person I've grown I know I can make it and I now am no longer afraid to stand on my own But I understand and yes I know That in this journey within myself I still have quite a long way to go At times I still feel so week and that I haven't came very far And I find myself wishing on each and every single star Why do I at times feel so crazy and like I don't belong? I feel like you and I were meant to be so strong And if in feeling this I'm entirely wrong Then to me it doesn't make any kind of sense As to why I feel all this and more so intense... ...you and I will always be together in spirit from the day we met and until eternity