Inside

During the day I smile People can see my fake joy from miles away They are unable to see what's really going on My smile hides the sorrow I feel on the inside The depression that eats away at my real happiness The thoughts that haunt me at night They can only see the subtle physical scars Like the cuts that were made by my blade My way of relief My addiction that I can't stop No matter how hard I try I could go a month but there may be one day of pain Where I only see one relief My scares share a story A story I cant seem to speak A story that burns my soul My heart And my mind On the inside I am a mess A mess that can never be seen