Insecurity Ruled

I was a nerd when I was a kid
No doubt about it I was shy and skinny
I never seemed to really fit in
When it came to friends I didn't have many

I was as shy as anyone could be 
The awkward kid who sucked her thumb
Full of so much insecurity 
I hated school, thought I was dumb

The thumb sucking gave me an ugly overbite
As if it wasn't bad enough
So I got braces to get my teeth right 
Then I really looked rough

As I got older I made more friends 
That didn't do much for my hatred of school
I would miss again and again
I hated having to follow rules

I hated each and every class
My mind would be a million miles away
My mama was afraid that I wouldn't pass
She talked to me but I had nothing to say

As the years went on it only got worse
My hatred for it was at an all time high
I felt like school was an evil curse
To get out of going I would tell any lie

I couldn't come up with a good reason to go
I felt stupid in class and I made bad grades
I didn't fit in there, I wanted to be alone
I was a nerd who didn't even make A's

There were a lot of things holding me back
I was so very awkward and shy
There were so many qualities I thought I lacked
I just wanted to throw my hands up and cry

I would get so irritated
I wanted to be away from there
Believe it or not I graduated
but I actually still have school nightmares

As I got older I felt better about me
The shyness faded and my looks improved
There wasn't nearly the pressure you see
I was noticed more and often pursued

I got married and found my place
Everything started working out
It moved at a pretty slow pace
but never the less it was doubt

I now have everything I could ask for
A great life, great job and a pretty great guy
Opportunity is knocking down my door
I feel like I could sometimes even fly

So I'm extremely happy that I didn't fail
Glad that I wasn't all that cool
The moral of this little tale
Some people peak in high school

What comes later is often sad to see
We see it time and again
They're not where you thought they would be
They aren't even where they were then

Copyright © | Year Posted 2016

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