Insecurity

What is this feeling? It nags at me deep inside I try to pay it no attention Yet it comes back all the time I start to doubt everything My abilities and my mind I know there is no logic to it But I can’t leave it behind Yes I’m loved, and have friends And don’t have a bad life... Still I can’t shake the insecurity Others must think I am blind Sins of the past still haunt me I ruined what was once so fine Tried to forgive me and move on And to myself be more kind But some days there seems no escape No reasoning and no rhyme... I wish it wasn’t so complicated I think I’m missing all the signs Seems all I can do is live with it Try and make peace, stop asking why I think I’ll always have insecurity A companion until the day I die