Innocence

Yesterday was innocence, I was healthy, fine At today's diagnosis meeting They said, "There’s tissue not benign" I don't feel changed; I am the same With stress my strength is spent In endless spiraling wondering... About future events Are changes imposed? Warranted? Should I tell my friends to reveal? How can I think and talk about What to me is not yet real? Intrusive tests scheduled each day I submit 'tho I abhor Technicians' tough and callous ways As my fears they just ignore I submit without a murmur As physicians plan and direct A regimen lacking nurture Radiations killing affect Destroy cancer cells precisely Leave others whole and intact My system is prodded; jolted Uncertain how to react Funny 'tho; the sun's still bright, I smell the grass to calm The flowers bloom, people come to love As though to block the harm I discover a legion of friends Processing thoughts the same We live with uncertainties wondering Who there is to blame?