INFORMANT 1992

BEING AN INFORMANT UNDERCOVER DOPE FIEND HAD A FEW PERKS ESPECIALLY FOR MY ABUSIVE EX HUSBAND HE DID ODD JOBS FOR CIRO AND HIS PARTNER LARRY MOVING VIDEO MACHINES FENCING WEAPONS CIRO HAD STORED IN HIS SHOP TO MECHANIC WORK LOOKING BACK AFTER THE FBI INFORMED ME OF THE REAL DANGER ARSON MURDER RESULTING 8 PERSONS IT WAS IN THAT MOMENT I BEGAN WEARING WIRES FOR THE FBI BUYING WEAPONS AND DRUGS FROM JUNK SICK COPS THE ENTIRE TOWN WAS ON DRUGS AND CIRO WAS THE BOSS HE PAID ALL HIS WORKERS IN DRUGS BEING AN INFORMANT ITS VERY IMPORTANT NOT TO BLOW YOUR COVER ON BLOW MY EX WAS A MASTER DRUG ABUSER WIFE BEATER MY JOB WAS TO MAKE SURE ALL THE DEALERS TRUSTED US THE ONLY WAY TO BUY DRUGS FROM KILLERS DEALERS AND CROOKED COPS WAS TO PORTRAY THE UNDER COVER DOPE FIEND THE DEALERS WERE SUSPICIOUS BY DAY WE BOUGHT LARGE AMOUNTS OF DRUGS FOR THE FBI THIS ALLOWED THESE POWERFUL DRUG DEALERS TO BELIEVE WE WERE BIG TIME DEALERS TOO THAT WAS ALL A COVER UP THE UPSIDE WAS MY EX COULD GET DRUGS FROM THESE DEALERS FOR FREE CAUSE THEY BELIEVED WE WERE DEALERS SO AFTER WE BOUGHT DRUGS FOR THE FBI BY DAY BY NIGHT HE WOULD VANISH MEANWHILE DEALERS KNOCKING ON MY DOOR LOOKING FOR HIM THEY DEMANDED HE PAY THEM FOR THE DRUGS IT BEGAN WITH CIRO AND LARRY GIVING HIM DRUGS TO SALE DIDN'T MATTER JUNKIES CAN'T SELL DRUGS JUNKIE USE DRUGS SO THE UNDER COVER DOPE FIEND BECAME A REALITY EVEN DIRTY COPS GAVE MY EX DRUGS TO SELL NEVER FAILED HE'D USE THE DRUGS UP I AM BLESSED TO BE ALIVE IN 1992 HE RAN OFF WITH CIRO’S PARTNERS DRUGS THE DOWNSIDE THE DEALERS KILLERS DEMANDED MONIES OR KIDNAP YOUR FAMILY UNTIL THE DEBT. IS PAID IN FULL CIRO HAD KILLERS LOOKING FOR MY EX HUSBAND HE WOULD BE GONE FOR WEEKS USING THE DRUGS THEN HE WOULD SNEAK BACK HOME HIDE UNDER THE BED WE SLEPT ON THE FLOOR TO COVER FROM BULLETS BLARING THROUGH THE WINDOWS NO EASY LIFE I ASKED MYSELF WHY DO THESE DEALERS KEEP TRUSTING HIM KNOWING HE WAS A JUNKIE IT WAS BECAUSE HE WORKED FOR CIRO AND LARRY IT WAS BECAUSE I WORE WIRES PREGNANT BUYING WEAPONS AND DRUGS FOR THE FBI I CREATED THIS COVER TO SAVE OUR LIVES NEVER REALIZING THE TRUTH MY ABUSIVE EX HUSBAND WAS KILLING HIMSELF AND BEATING ME I OFTEN FOUND MYSELF WONDERING WHY THE FBI TRUSTED US TO BUY DRUGS KNOWING HE WAS A FULL BLOWN ADDICT THE AGENTS WARNS US NO REHAD NO DRUG TREATMENT CAUSE TOO MANY CROOKED COPS WERE GOING TO TREATMENT FACILITIES WHICH MEANT GETTING HELP WOULD BLOW OUR COVER WHILE USING DRUGS WAS KEEPING US ALIVE BECAUSE ONCE THE DEALERS FIND OUT YOU'RE NOT USING DRUGS YOU ARE DEAD SO NOW IT'S 1992 CIRO’S GOONS LOOKING FOR MY ABUSIVE EX HUSBAND THEY WANT THE MONIES THERE WAS NO MONEY EVERYTIME THEY GAVE HIM DRUGS HE WASN'T A DRUG DEALER HE WAS A DRUG USER THIS RESULTED IN A LOT OF DEALERS BEING MURDERED IN HOTEL ROOMS TRYING TO EXPLAIN WHY THEY DON'T HAVE THE MONEY I KNEW IT WAS BECAUSE MY EX USED THE DRUGS AND THESE WERE KILLERS YOU CAN'T TELL KILLERS YOU USED UP THEIR DRUGS THIS HAPPENS SEVERAL TIME DRUG DEALER GIVE HIM DRUGS TO SALE HE USE THE DRUGS UP NOW KILLERS ABDUCTING ME CIRO WOULD BE SO ANGRY WHEN SOMEBODY USED UP HIS DRUGS HE WOULD ACTUALLY PUT THEIR KIDS FEET ON SPACE HEATERS UNTIL THEY PAID HIM THE MONEY A FOUR YEAR OLD GIRL FEET WAS MELTED I'M THINKING WHY GIVE A DOPE FIEND YOUR DRUGS TO SALE IN THE FIRST PLACE MY HUSBAND AND I BOUGHT SO MUCH DRUGS FOR THE FBI THESE BIG TIME DEALERS BELIEVED HE COULD SALE THEIR DRUGS MY LIFE WAS IN DANGER BY NOW MY EX OWED CIRO AND HIS PARTNER LARRY AND ALL THE DEALERS NOW IN TOWN THERE I WAS AN INFORMANT MY HEART NEVER STOPPED POUNDING FEARING I'D BE ABDUCTED AGAIN THIS TIME THEY KIDNAPPED THE CHILDREN HOLDING THEM RANSOM BECAUSE ANOTHER DEALER GAVE HIM DRUGS TO SALE AND YOU GOT IT HE USED THE DRUGS UP AGAIN LEAVING FOR WEEKS I DIDN'T MIND HIM BEING GONE IT WAS WHEN HE RETURNED BEATING ME GRABBING THE KIDS TAKING THEM TO HIS DEALERS HOUSES HIDING FROM ME FINALLY PAWNING THE KIDS KNOWING FULL WELL HE WAS GOING TO USE THE DEALERS DRUGS SEARCHING FOR MY KIDS THEY WERE BEING HELD FOR RANSOM UNTIL MY EX PAY THIS KILLERS GUESS WHAT HE KNEW HE COULDN'T PAY THEM HE STILL USED ALL THE DEALERS DRUGS FINALLY THE DEALER SAID HE HAD TO GET RID OF THE THREE KIDS HE KNEW THEIR DAD WASN'T COMING BACK FOR HIS OWN CHILDREN A TWO BID JUNKIE IS WHAT HE'D BECOME BY GODS GRACE I ALWAYS TOLD MY DAUGHTER IF EVER DAD SNAPS AND TAKE YOU GUYS SAFETY MEASURE HOW WE WOULD FIND EACHOTHER AGAIN I WAITED STAKED OUT ACROSS THE STREET WHERE MY EX USED HIS DRUGS MY DAUGHTER TOLD THE DEALERS TO PLEASE DROP THEM OFF AT MY MOM JOB OUR SAFETY PLAN JUST IN CASE YOU'RE EVER TAKEN I LOOKED ACROSS THE STREET MY GOD RAINBOW BRIGHT DOLLS SITTING THERE MY GIRLS WERE SAFE THREE WHOLE WEEKS I SEARCHED FOR MY KIDS THE POLICE TOLD ME THERE WAS NOTHING THEY COULD DO HE WAS THEIR DAD HE HAD A RIGHT TO HAVE HIS OWN KIDS I WAS DEVESTATED GOT RETSTRAINING ORDERS DIDN'T MATTER MORE BEATINGS TILL FINALLY I HID IN A DOMESTIC VIOLENCE SHELTER CIRO’S PARTNER TURNED HIMSELF IN AFTER HIS BROTHERS WERE FOUND MURDERED IN A HOTEL BEING RAT HAS ITS PERKS YOU BUY DRUGS FOR THE FBI PREGNANT MY EX EVEN TOOK FBI DRUGS FOR HIS OWN PERSONAL SELF BULLYING ME TO MAKE THE CALL TO GET FREE DRUGS FROM THE FBI BY DAY BY NIGHT CIRO DRUG DEALER GIVES HIM DRUGS TO SALE SADLY THIS RESULTS IN DEATH JUNKIES CAN'T SELL DRUGS OVERDOSE IF HE'S LUCKY ENOUGH OTHERWISE THEN KILLERS WILL KILL YOU KIDNAP YOUR WIFE AND CHILDREN I RAN FOR MY LIFE TRULY 1992 LEAVING DEAD BODIES BEHIND EACH A DEALER GAVE MY ABUSIVE EX DRUGSBTO SALE AN ANGEL GOT HIS WINGS EVEN WHEN THE FBI RELOCATED US TO CLEVELAND 1991 NEVER FAILED DEALERS FROM FORT ROCWAY TRUSTED HIM HE USED THE DRUGS DEALERS GAME KILLED THE GUY HE GOT TO TRUST HIM TO SALE THE DRUGS 1992 TWO DEALERS FOUND DEAD IN A HOTEL MILWAUKEE FBI THERE IS NOTHING GLAMOROUS ABOUT BUYING WEAPONS AND DRUGS PREGNANT FOR THE FBI FROM.JUNK SICK COPS DEALERS KILLERS TRYING TO KEEP MY COVER AS AN INFORMANT ITS A DEADLY GAME OF TERROR RESULTING IN MY CHILDREN AND I BEING ABDUCTED THE SUMMER OF 92